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Four Februarys

This morning I was prompted by a conversation with a friend to look up a post I’d written for my personal blog a few years back. As I skipped lightly through the archives, reminded of a few favorite yet forgotten essays, it suddenly dawned on me that I had started my blog three years ago this month. In fact, my first post ever was dated February 11, 2011. That’s exactly three years ago to the day.

Tempted—as we often are—to go back in time and revisit great adventures, I retrieved my February posts for three consecutive years (2011, 2012, 2013) and had a thorough read while the morning fog cleared. Thoughtful recollection has ensued and leaves me wanting to share the links and highlights with you.

February 2011: Prologue
February 2012: I Can Only Be Honest
February 2013: We Can Change

That first February, I felt a burning desire to write—to capture and pin down fleeting memories, to share and connect with others over common predicaments, and to work through some major decisions. Coaching was not yet on my radar as a new career possibility, nor was I yet considering a move west, but I had a growing feeling that significant changes were afoot.

The second February found me at a low energy point, mired in uncertainty and discomfort, admitting to those who knew me—and to myself as well—that I was stuck. There was liberation in the admission, though. Giving myself permission to sit with—rather than struggle against—my discomfort proved to be the first step towards eventually feeling better.

By the third February, life looked and felt very different. I couldn’t help but acknowledge my transformation, and it was equally apparent to all who had watched me transition. (If you read just one of the three posts, read that one.)

Today I celebrate my fourth February. As one would expect, my life story continues to unfold, alternately challenging and inspiring me. I would wish for nothing less; I want to be a work-in-progress until the moment I die. Above all, I am grateful that I can chart my journey across four Februarys, as such history becomes a useful reference point and reminder of what I am capable of accomplishing.

When I wrote my first post on February 11, 2011, I had no idea what I was starting. I just knew that I was ready to start something, and I gave myself space to explore what that something might be. Today I invite you to think about your small starts that grew and evolved into something bigger, transforming your life in unexpected and meaningful ways over time. Then, look at the new possibilities for small starts that you may have been dismissing or putting off. What would it take to give them a little space and air to breathe? What do you imagine might happen?

This could be your First February.

With support and encouragement for your journey,

Marnie
Founder, The Crossroads Coach

Published February 11, 2014